Have you ever loved somebody so much and so hard that it hurts?! Nah me neither. But I will tell you this, I have loved with all of my heart and my soul and I know that feeling of wonder and amazement when you love with every fibre of your being and having it returned maximises your output ten fold. That's what I own, and lives in my heart, such a precious gift that I often feel unworthy of its magnitude. And I have one person to thank for that feeling, you Phiona J Ellis. You are an elegant soul that makes me grateful for being made male, destined to one day become your man!

I still remember the first time I saw you. To be honest it was not like in the movies, I didn't immediately suddenly know I had found THE ONE.  In fact I may have missed you entirely how focused I was what I was doing, but I will say you did peak my interest. You made me wonder who is this majestic creature requiring me to inquire further. It was not the first time we spoke either that I suddenly fell in love. However, I did fall in like and I did recognise the beauty inside you that radiated outward. My heart told me there was something special about you and I took notice. With the ease of our conversation, it felt so natural, kind of surreal, but most importantly it felt good!

I met you at a time when my life was in constant turmoil, with no certainty for my future. And through it all you become my beacon, the lighthouse of the turbulent seas of my life that warns me of rocky waters. Together we have grown from singular identities into a fluid conscience, our love is real, we have created life. Bound by the laws of life, I am required to "live" "feel" "breathe" as long as you are a vital organ are apart of me, us.

For so long I have had to live with my heart outside my body. Through impossible odds, and the absence of any guarantees when rolling the dice of life gambling on love, we have prevailed. We are ready for the final evolution, that will bring us together and make us whole.

I am ready to have my heart inside my body to make me whole. Phiona Ellis I am ready to have you as my wife.

As I realize now my life did not really begin until I met you, then today is my baptism into this world that has prepared me to receive my blessings, You.

Eternity begins today.......